Past, Present, Permanent

30th of April, seems like yesterday.
We bought a house above the ocean
where our kids could laugh and play.

I called you from Paris
to tell you that I wrote our names on the observation deck
of the Eiffel Tower.

Remember those nights,
playing "Summer wind" on the juke box of the bar we used to go.
We made out in the bathroom and you walked me to my house,
I tried to convince you not to go home.

If only i had more time, I'd take you where you wanted to go.
Italy isn't the same without you here.
If only I had one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetimes
that I could spend with you...
Fall in love with you again and again.

1st of November, 1998.
I was thinking of what to say when I could call.
Denise come over to my house, cuz you're the one for me.
We'll drink cheap wine and watch more shooting stars.

Remember our first apartment?
Our couch was never big enough for two.
Still, we'd fall asleep in each other's arms and wake up on the floor.
Now looking back it was made for me and you.

If only I had more time, I'd take you where you wanted to go.
Japan is really nice this time of year.
If only I had one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetimes
that I could spend with you...
Fall in love with you again and again.

If only I had more time...
England isn't the same without you here
If only I had one wish, I'd want a million trillion lifetimes
that I could spend with you...
Fall in love with you again and again.

yeah, i failed ss.
11/25
poor me.
boo.
hoo.

and a-maths was a killer. well, so was every paper.

i've learnt not to be confident about any exam. because whenever i feel confident, i usually get lousy marks. so if i keep on thinking i'll fail, i won't be let down so often, right? and a good mark would be only a bonus. so yeah..

nothing happened to me this past week. or maybe i just didn't notice.

i don't think i've ever gone this long without hearing from zq before.. last time, at least we could call. now, i dunno..

i miss you...

i hate living like this. i hate living.

wonder how zq's doing now...