Past, Present, Permanent

i think my my life is just an unlucky coincidence sometimes. when something totally harmless coincides with another harmless issue, it usually becomes quite bad. i am so so SO grateful that i got a chance to explain myself. if i didn't, i think my miserable LOUSY LIFE would have ended yesterday at 7pm.
and i hate irons. why must they be hot? i'm sure our technology is advanced enough to have cold irons that serve the same purpose. then less people would hurt when they accidentally touch the smoothening part..
oh, and the mcspicy tastes hotter when it's colder. if you get what i mean.
argh, got two blisters and tore two gloves at golf prac today. and it occupied my whole afternoon too. when i could be smsing zq. oh wait, i have an sms restriction... bah.
now i will take an oath :

He’s a stranger to some
And a vision to none
He can never get enough,
Get enough of the world

For a fortune he'd quit
But it’s hard to admit
How it ends and begins
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
From yesterday, it’s coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't want to read the message here

On a mountain he sits, not of gold but of sin
through the blood he can learn, see the life that he took
From a council of one
He'll decide when he's done with the innocent

On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)
On his face is a map of the world
(A map of the world)

From yesterday, it’s coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't want to read the message
he doesn't want to read the message
He doesn't want to read the message here

On his face is a map of the world

From yesterday, it’s coming!
From yesterday, the fear!
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't want to read the message here
From yesterday,
From yesterday,
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday,
From yesterday
But he doesn't want to read the message
He doesnt want to read the message
he doesn't want to read the message here

arrrrrgh! stupid f-ing blogger. spent so much time typing my post and when i published, it gave me an empty post. darn!!!! anw the original post, as far as i can remember, is below.

i'm not supposed to tell anyone where i went today. but i ABSOLUTELY HAD to tell zq. forgive me, mrs tan. there are somethings that have to be done.
and i just realised, everything i need comes with a price. this month, the price is $123.11, including the calls to zq from malaysia. luckily she only had to pay $50+. still, it's more than half her allowance gone.. wish i could do something about it...
i found something in my bag today. and i'm still muddled when i think about it. part of me wants to give it back, but another part of me wants to give it to charity. but a good portion of my mind is asking me to spend it on her prezzie. i guess i should decide soon...
oh, my specs nose-rest broke again. this always happens.. guess what? my mom came into the room while i was fixing it and immediately said: "it broke again? WHAT DID YOU DO?? it couldn't have broken by itself." RIGHT. everything's my fault. i bet you wouldn't have got me glasses if the doctor didn't say anything.
sometimes i wonder why i'm studying, and why my folks push me to study. thay keep saying it's for my future. they want me to get a good pay and all that crap. whaddya know? they're actually expecting me to give them my pay when they grow old. i'm BLESSED with SUCH GOOD PARENTS. WOW.
on a brighter note (anything non-parent is already on a brighter note anyway), we're still reeling from wednesday's events. haha, imagine a secret let out through a hole between two tables. i can't wait for next week. i may have to sacrifice a little time, but hey, it's worth it. i would even miss out on the 2d gathering. i'd rather spend a minute with zq than spent the whole day with old classmates anyway. it's a hobson's choice.
i wonder if her ear's ok by now. forgot to ask her abt it just now. lol, i couldn't fit it into our convo. the eardrops should help a lot though. hopefully she's hearing alright already.
told you, you won't become deaf :p